WHY?

So alot has happened this last yr and I am Frickin ANGRY !!!!!
i can't say i am happy at all because that would be me lying to myself
Lonnie still does not have a job and it has been 9 months
Lonnie had to foreclose on the only Home i had !
We ended up moving from a 4 bedroom house to a 3 bedroom town house

The Boys are all in 1 room and Jayedyn has her own, But the Noise and constant loudness is killing me .

The place is nice and i am trying my best to make it a home here are a few pictures
Front door and front room



Stairs up and Hall
Bathroom up and Jayedyn's room Jayedyn's Room
The Boys room

Mine and Lonnie's




The Hall & Kitchen

Downstairs to the Family room
The Family Room (Downstairs)Still Needing to be unpacked in these pictures


The Backyard






But Honestly despite everything else i am sick to death ..

We have been in this house for 3 weeks now and can you Believe that Someone broke into my van and ripped out my Stereo All because Lonnie did not lock the door , I know that there is a special place in hell for those jerks and i hope they get everything that is coming to them ....



I am still pulling strong in school and have learned so much BUT honestly i can't compete Health wise i am exhausted at the end of the day So much that i could sleep and never wake up which honestly if this is how the rest of my life is I would rather do that .

I turned down Las Vegas with my classmates To Move and Don't even get me started on My Missed trip to Fork's

I am ANGRY about that and despite being an adult i should have just gone... Because now i look at the girl's pictures and i just get angrier, Really what would have changed? absolutely nothing if i went ....Nothing!!!! PLUS i feel like i am loosing That bond with my friends. Not just the Nrg But all of them

I am that one friend who Is always depressed and never can do anything Because i have no money(honestly who wants to hang out with that looser?)



I am sitting here on the day that is supposed to be my temple anniversary Wishing The worst !

I have started to attend church again in our new ward which seems like a nice place but My faith is SHATTERED and my testimony is barely there . If it wasn't for the missionaries (which by the way happen to be the same one who baptized Logan ) i am not sure where i would be .



I just want my life to get back to where it needs to be Because obviously i do not handle these situations well at all

I am hoping that i will be able to handle this and be strong But i just don't see how much more i can take .

I need a Break!